Life …. is a struggle right now.
It’s very hard to fit everything in. I was doing ok but now I’m bouncing between wanting to get faster with my running and wanting to do better at the Half Ironman.
A tough cycle means I don’t have fresh legs for running. Not having fresh legs makes running fast almost impossible. I’ve not had time to do slow, long runs yet for the marathon coming up and my last few races I’ve gone out too fast.
And paid for it.
And of course swimming. I’ve finally got the youngest in swimming lessons but it’s at a time I’ve been doing one of my own sessions – so that one is now scrapped. Kids come first though. There’s no question about that. My Monday swim has also been knocked on the head since the other half joined the local Tri club. We can’t both go out at the same time as my mum already does so much for us.
Welcome to the pity party.
So what to do.
I could grumble and grumble and grumble away for oh, I don’t know, a good few novel fulls anyway, but that’s not going to solve anything. I know this.
At the end of the day I chose this. I chose to challenge myself with a Half Ironman. I chose to do another marathon. So if I want to achieve this, I guess I’m just going to have to suck it up!
Now is not the time to start slacking just because it’s getting hard or because I can’t do the sessions I’ve planned at a set time.
That. That right there. THATS the difficulty. Accepting I have to change my plan. Jiggle things about a bit. Make the most of the sessions that I can do. Get up even earlier to fit more in. Force myself to cycle at lunch and not always run. Use my running for distance not speed. If I can only get half an hour in the pool then it’s 30 minutes more than 0.
I don’t like it though. Not when I can’t do what I’ve scheduled in. I have a routine. I like my routine. It works for me and I work hard at it. (I write in pen in my book, not pencil). If it looks like I may be 5 minutes later getting out the door I panic. How ridiculous is that? It is what it is though.
So what’s the end result of this?
You said it before – suck it up buttercup, it’s not over yet. You’ve got a finish line to cross.